(14) Torah addresses issues that spring from my innermost self, my mind, my spirit. But the problem is that my outer self (my body) is sometimes dominated by old destructive patterns. (15) I don’t understand my behavior sometimes. I don’t do what I love to do; instead I do the things I hate.
(16) Now, when my behavior is out of control, external rules and restrictions can be a helpful part of the healing process. (17) But the fact is that when I sin, it is not my true self. It is my false self, the fleshly echo of the person I used to be. (18) In my flesh is ingrained a lifetime of accumulated nasty habits. I may want to behave in a healthier way, but I cannot simply wish my way out of the old ruts. I am stuck. (19) I want to behave in healthy ways but I don’t. Instead, I behave in unhealthy ways, even though I don’t want to.
(20) My body (my outer self) does things my spirit (my inner self) does not want. My behavior is being driven not by my true self, but by a kind of muscle memory. My body is simply doing what I have spent a lifetime conditioning it to do. (21) It is my observation that whenever I want to do good, the evil inside me is always there to offer its ‘better ideas.’ (22) My mind votes for the Triune way of goodness. (23) My body votes for something else. And my body seems to win every single election. I’m stuck as a powerless minority party in my own body!
(24) I am miserable! I am stuck! Who will rescue me from this body of death? (25) Who will rescue me? Jesus, that’s who. Through him I shout YIPPEEEEE!
It is true that my body still lives under the boot of darkness, but that is just because my body is still out-of-touch with the real world. But my MIND has now made contact with REALITY. Because my mind knows that Jesus is the CEO of the universe, I have begun to come alive under his blessed rule.
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